Wednesday, December 30, 2009

A Tribute

We all can point to people who have had a huge impact on our lives, usually our parents, grandparents, siblings, or other relatives. A spouse. Perhaps a teacher or career mentor. Today I want to pay tribute to someone I've never met, but whose influence I've felt for the last few years. I know her only through occasional vignettes relayed to me by the woman I love. From those vignettes, and the way my lover talked of her mother-in-law, I know she was a very special person.

When I first met my lover she had been widowed for several years. In those early days we often talked about her husband and I quickly grew to like and respect him. To this day he holds a place of high honor with me, because without him the woman I love would simply not exist. And while her husband was long gone by the time I met my lover, his mother continued to live with her and influence her life. I will forever be thankful for the time she walked this earth, and the legacy she left behind.

I know that tonight my lover is in extreme pain, and my heart goes out to her and to her entire family. You, and the world, have suffered a great loss.

Sunday, December 6, 2009

I wanted to f*** her brain

It all started with her Tweets. She seemed smart, funny, flirtatious. In my mind I pictured her as cute and sexy. I decided I wanted to fuck her brain, which is different than "fucking her brains out". Not that the two are mutually exclusive mind you!

I was officially sex-starved, having gone two weeks without. My how that makes me laugh! I have trouble being celibate for two weeks, when I've had periods of years without sex? I've always had the appetite for lots of sex and sexual variety, but I'd forced myself to suppress it. Better to be celibate than seek sexual adventure outside of marriage. At least until the marriage snapped. I'd gotten myself through that knothole, keeping the marriage healthy, and eventually taking on a mistress. And now I realize how much has changed over the last 5 years, urged on by a lover with a very strong sexual appetite herself. The 6 additional weeks until I could again see my lover weighed heavily on me. I couldn't do anything about the emotional hole I was feeling, but I could turn lemons into lemonade. I decided I would seek a one or more sexual adventures in my lover's absence. As always the first question to come to mind was, kink or vanilla? I decided kink was in order, particularly experiences that would be quite different with a stranger than with my lover. At the same time I wouldn't rule out something more vanilla if the right woman came along. I even had an ulterior motive.

I love smart women. I'm seduced by them even if that isn't their intent, and when that is their intent then I figure resistance is futile. That's how it was with these tweets. They weren't directed at me, but there was something about them that made me want to meet and fuck the brain that wrote them. Sexy? Check. Funny? Check (silly even, but in a very brainy way). Sophisticated? Yes, that showed through the silliness. Genuine? She sure seemed that way.

I did not look to see if she had reviews. I did not look at her pictures. I did not look at her prices. I simply sent her mail saying I wanted to see her. And I had one of the best times since starting my adventures.

As for my ulterior motive.... I've always wanted to give my lover the gift of a threesome, but never could think of someone I thought worthy to present to her. As anyone who has read my or my lover's blogs knows, we have done threesomes with one of her friends. That was her gift to me (and to herself, of course). But now, I've found someone I'd be happy to bring to a threesome with my lover. Hopefully we can make that happen soon after her return. Because as much as I love sexual adventures, the ones I love the most are those that I get to share with her.